Down But Not Out

It's been a down day today and this afternoon hasn't proved any different from the rest of the day.  My mood is the same level as the barometric pressure--rain today.  The fact is, I've been giving so much lately that I'm all "gived-out."  I needed a day to do nothing, which I've had, but I feel guilty.  Now, what gives with that?  I feel I deserve a day off but since I really have "no job," I feel I still must do some work.  So...I put dishes in the dishwasher, put a roast in the crock pot, folded clothes, tried to do something creative (no such luck), cleaned out a filing cabinet drawer, made the bed, made lunch, washed some "creatin' fabric"--so after typing all that, I guess I really didn't to "nothing."  The afternoon's a downer because one of our church people tried to commit suicide and Bill, after just walking in the door, changing clothes and heading for his workshop, was sent to check things out.  Not only that, I was hoping we'd get to go to the show this evening--just the two of us, like a date or something.  But no.  Duty calls.  Sometimes I hate being a pastor's wife.  And...I'm angry instead of concerned about the person who is lying in the hospital.  They shouldn't have done that to themselves.  Now I really feel guilty.